First Snowfall
Our first official snowfall of the year! Here's what I saw when I looked out this morning. Looks so nice from inside, but I'm sure it's blistery cold out there.
I love snow but now that I'm out here, I'm afraid that it makes me feel trapped. Not sure if I ever mentioned it here, but I have a strange phobia when it comes to driving. I know, not exactly the most convenient for suburban living huh? And driving in less-than perfect weather conditions, NOT going to happen. It's a fear that I'm desperately trying to conquer. Growing up in the city, there was never a need for me to drive. I wasn't your typical 15 year old counting the days until she could walk into the DMV and claim her right to drive. In fact, I didn't get my license until I was in college. I'm not really sure where my fear stems from but my stomach literally goes into knots just thinking about getting behind the wheel.
This little problem is probably one of the biggest underlying causes of the "transition issues" I hinted at on Monday. The one thing I miss MOST about the city is the ability for me to walk, take the bus or take the subway anywhere/anytime. The most annoying thing I find about my new town - no one freakin' walks (which makes you feel like a freak if you do)! With that said, I guess that's my issue to deal with. On the flip-side, there is something to be said about being able to drive, park, do your shit, get back in your car (schlepping the bags on a cart) and then you're home in no time. Definitely better than walking to Union Square Whole Foods/Trader Joe's, waiting for the 14A for 30 minutes then climbing five flights of stairs with 50lbs of groceries dangling from your soon-to-be dislocated limbs.
So back to this driving thing... so how do I plan to get over the fear?
to be continued...
5 comments:
You people over in the northeast don't know cold do you? That looks like wet sticky snow to me. The kind that melts when the sun comes out. When it is blistering cold, the snow is all sparkly and shiny. ;-)
well I'm definitely not a doppler-radar... but "blistering cold" is a VERY subjective term!
Don't know if defensive driving course would help!??!!!???BTW, what exactly is your fear about driving?? is it the possibility of hitting a person or a car??? LOL!!!Actually having one or two minor accidents can take care of that fear!!!No sweat!! You'll get over it!!!Like Flashdance!!! Remember!!!
I'm not really sure MJ. I'm having a difficult time pinpointing exactly what it is... but will keep you posted.
The thing to do is face the things that you fear. Take a defensive driving class and remind yourself that other people drive. You are brave and capable and you can do it!
Sometimes I find that an anxieties like these are not really about the thing at all, they are just a catalyst for all the other things that are upsetting or anxiety producing. You have been through a major move and that is a big deal. It isn't surprising that a fear you've already had would worsen or simply rear it's head.
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