It's so beautiful outside today, I wish I could bottle it up and save it for a dreary December day.
Taking a non-New Yorker pace stroll this morning, feeling the sun on my arms and face, a KT Tunstall melancholic tune in my ear, slight breeze every now and then - I couldn't help but think... I'm so happy. I can't quite pinpoint the last time I thought that to myself, so I'm assuming it's been a while since I've been genuinely happy. It wasn't too long ago when I felt that my whole world was crumbling down. A failing marriage and everything else that comes along with one was probably the second hardest thing I've had to go through (the first, well... I'll save that one for another post). I remember hating my job so much that I would start to feel knots in my stomach at 4pm every Sunday; co-workers getting under my skin; not having the time or energy to speak or see my friends; eating way too much take-out; complaining about everything to anyone who would listen - the list goes on and on.
I don't mean to be all "na na na na na, my life is great, I'm so happy..." I just wanted to offer some hope to those who may not be prancing around the streets with a grin from ear to ear these days - take it from me, LIFE COULD BE BLISS. Surround yourself with people that love you and who you love. It took me a while to realize but true love (family, friends, partner) is when the actual act of loving that person makes you truly happy and brings a smile to your face.
I find sharing my thoughts/feelings so therapeutic. Especially when it comes to not-so-happy thoughts and memories, I think it somehow makes it easier to just let them go once I've tossed them out into the cyber world. Thanks for allowing me to sit on your couches! Lord knows I don't have health insurance at the moment, so I truly truly appreciate it =)
Couch courtesy of anthropologie.com